Archive for October, 2009

Micah 6:8

Taking showers at night is the best thing ever. I always feel so great, like I’ve washed away the cares of the day.  The only problem is, my hair is now wet and I don’t want to go sleep quite yet or it’ll dry funny. Also, my brain is now just wide awake.

Our big work fundraiser, the “Voyage of Hope” Gala, was this last weekend.  I have mixed feelings about work events.  On the one hand, they involve a whole flipping lot of work.  I got lucky, if you will, this year for the Gala and didn’t have to do too much to help. Obviously I helped, and was willing to help with everything, but I didn’t end up with much to do. Last year, I helped with prep and I did a ton of stuff the actual night of the event.  I’m happy to help, but it’s nice to sit back and enjoy the night as well  On the other hand, they are a flipping blast!  First of all, it’s just fun to get all dressed up and see all my lovely friends and coworkers dressed up. It’s great to see our partners and board members and everyone all in one place.  And the best part is that we get to hear how our organization has made a difference.  Last year I was new, and I don’t think I really knew the scope of what we did.  This year, I was moved to tears.

There’s something about hearing and seeing these stories outside of the office that struck me to the bone this year, even though I’d heard them all before.  We heard about the woman in Thailand who rushed into karaoke bars and grabbed as many kids as her arms could hold in order to save them from sex slavery. Now she has a village of children that she’s rescued, and we helped provide the equipment and medicines for their clinic.  We heard about the village in Africa where a hospital literally saved hundreds of lives, including that of a baby girl named Jeannie, because we were able to send medicines to them. Stories like that break my heart.

We have been blessed with so much here, and yet I get frustrated about my job? What is wrong with this picture?! Yesterday we received a stack of pictures that the kids from the orphanage in Thailand had drawn and sent to us.  There were pictures of animals and people and Disney princesses and beautiful landscapes, and there was just so much joy and hope poured into the pages. A lot of those kids were sold to sex traffickers by their own parents.  Some might have been kidnapped or tricked into it.  I don’t know their stories, but I am beyond honoured to be a part of that story in some small, miniscule way.  By the way, the picture I picked to put up in my workspace is a pretty landscape. The best part is that they wrote “I like cow” and “I love you” on it as well!  I like cows too.

I feel like I get so caught up in the mundane and the business aspect of things that I forget we work with people, and that people change. The work we do touches and changes people.  I hope that picture is a constant reminder of just that.  I also saw a ring at Target and I just had to buy it. Partially because it’s a spiffy ring, but mostly because it says, “Be the change you wish to see in the world.”  I know that’s tacky and cliche and whatever, but that’s what I want to do with the rest of my life, in some way, shape or form.  God has done so many miraculous things with this organization. I pray He continues to work in it. Heaven knows we need all the help we can get, because we certainly don’t do it on our own strength. If we did, I think I would have keeled over from exhaustion days after I started there!

Anyway, all the work and tears we put into that event were worth it, in my opinion.  I just feel so motivated by everything that’s happened in the last week.  It puts the mundane tasks into perspective, and makes me want to work just that much harder to further God’s Kingdom and this organization. I just pray that it doesn’t take huge events to remind me of that, but that God would show me how to do that on a daily basis.

“He has told you, O man, what is good; and what does the LORD require of you but to do justice, to love kindness, and to walk humbly with your God?” ~ Micah 6:8

 

This is the day

I have a really busy day tomorrow, and I really should be getting into bed right about now.  But I’m thinking about all the things that’ll be happening, and now my mind is racing.

Recently, I’ve been feeling out of sorts – overwhelmed, out of control, and just altogether not quite right.  Normally I would be lying in bed, staring at the ceiling, and dreading the next day.  But not tonight.

I have been so completely unappreciative of everything that the Lord has blessed me with.  I have a family that I love and who loves me (most days, anyway), friends who are supportive and loving and just plain awesome, a job at an organization that makes a real difference in the world and is Christ-centered, and coworkers who are not only a joy to work with but who have been the most encouraging people in my life recently.  And yet I have been dissatisfied and angry, while it is so much more than so many people have.

It has also been called to my attention that I have had a horrible attitude as well.  Quite frankly, I have known this but I’ve been kind of enjoying it, to be honest. The day-to-day at my work can be tough, I’m not going to lie.  There are days when all I want to do is lock myself in the bathroom and cry – and days where I actually have done it! But I have let the negative completely take over, and it is so miniscule compared to what some of the people we serve are going through. It is really quite exhausting.

I was just reading through this book I have called “Praying God’s Will for My Life” by Lee Roberts. I really like it – it’s full of Scripturally-based prayers that relate to different times or situations in your life. I opened it up tonight and read these verses (quite fittingly, in the “Attitude” section):

I pray that I know that I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.
~ Philippians 4:13

I pray that I will remember that this is the day the Lord has made, and that I will rejoice and be glad in it.
~ Psalm 118:24

I pray that I understand what Jesus meant when He said, “My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.”
~ 2 Corinthians 12:9

I pray that I will not sorrow, for the joy of the Lord is my strength.
~ Nehemiah 8:10

Wow. What powerful words. This is the day that the Lord has made, let us rejoice – where has my rejoicing been?!  The joy of the Lord is my strength – where is my joy?  I have been feeling sorrowful and weak, but why? I have Jesus and He is my strength! I have been relying on my own strength and it will fail me each and every time – thank God!  Jesus says that His grace is sufficient for us – in my weakness, His strength is made perfect.  How amazing is He?!

I have nothing to complain about, or sorrow about, or be miserable about!  Thank you God, for giving me these words tonight. I ask You to take control and provide me with a joy that You alone can be responsible for, so I can take no credit upon myself. Your grace truly is sufficient. I can do all things through You who give me strength.

I CAN’T WAIT

I have seriously shared this with everyone who has cared to listen (and even people who probably did not care in the least) – Where the Wild Things Are comes out in 2 – count ‘em, TWO – weeks, and my heart is full.

TO THIS DAY, my parents can practically recite the entire book verbatim because they read it to me so many times as a kid.  I have stuffed toys of the characters, the picture book is still in my bookshelf, and yes, I do read it every once in a while when I especially need a smile on my face.  I don’t know what it is about those Wild Things that I love so much, but I do.

Anyway, other than being ecstatic about the movie, today via Pop Candy (thanks!), I found out that Imeem is streaming the entire soundtrack online.  And it is AMAZING.  Karen O and the Kids are phenomenal.  I haven’t seen the movie, obviously but just listening to the songs and knowing the book practically backwards and forwards, I can tell it’s a perfect fit.

Who knows if I’ll love the movie or not (although seeing as how just the preview gives me goosebumps and butterflies, I think I’ll be ok with it), but if the soundtrack has anything to do with it, I will probably love it.

I’m so excited. SO EXCITED!!