Is there such a thing as permanent exhaustion? If there is, I think I have it; if there isn’t, I think it may be a new disorder. I can be the first clinical trial or something.
Anyways, no matter how much sleep I get, I am still tired. I could sleep 10 hours, then take a nap, then go to bed at a normal time and sleep another 10 hours, and still feel exhausted. Which has happened, by the way. Apparently I don’t sleep very well, or maybe I need to go to bed even earlier than I have been. I don’t always go to bed when I should. That could be part of the problem. Actually, that could be a large part of the problem.
Regardless, I don’t know what my problem is. My work days can sometimes be stressful, but I can usually leave it at work, unless it’s just been an extremely irritating day (which happens). I don’t really do too much outside of work – I spend some time with my core group and my friends and I hang out at home. My life is not really that eventful. But it’s come to the point where I practically have to start an IV drip of caffeine in my veins just to make it through the day. I know that’s definitely not healthy.
I have had more emotions running rampant than normal – lots of things going on in my life – and I think that has worn me down more than usual. Maybe it’s a combination of emotional, mental, and physical stress, plus working long hours, plus… whatever. Bad nutrition? Not enough sleep, really? I don’t know. But I need to figure it out and remedy it soon, because it’s having a bad effect on me, and I don’t like it. Not one bit.